couldn't read my own fucking journal. Haha.

EDIT Somehow this post got eaten. It was largely depressing anyway, and I doubt anyone will see it. Oh well.

I remember you though. I remember the fun. I remember the laughs. You still make me smile. And I'm sorry.

If it makes you feel any better, my life is totally crap - my own doing. No friends, no job, don't answer the phone, don't talk to people, rarely go online, too many issues. Scared a lot. I've become a hermit. Whee. I have had some issues with...ahh...certain dependencies. Supposed to be speaking to someone about them, but screw that. No point, nothing left to fix. I don't like talking about myself anyway. Not so narcissistic anymore haha.

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!! Totally didn't see that coming! But....wow....















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Ok I will say this much - turned out to be a much better birthday than I was expecting! :D

Woohoo! Nothing untoward occurred and I have the reins. Not that anything has changed, really :p

1. Who was the last person to touch your butt? Carla

2. Last awkward moment? hmm not sure

3. Who do you find yourself crushing on currently? Well Drew, duh

4. Have you ever fallen backwards down a set of stairs? no

5. Ever been to a friend's house and starved the whole time? no

6. Ever found more than a dollar in a random place? yup

9. When a friend walks out of your life, do you go after them or let them go? depends on the friend and why they left

10. Have you ever been corrected at your workplace? yes :p

12. Do you still see any of your ex's around? occasionally

13. Last time you smiled? today

14. What do you do when a telemarketer calls? hang up

15. Would life be the same without alcohol? yep

16. Would you go a month without washing your hair to save a loved one? if it would help

17. Have you had "the best night of your life"? I think that night is still coming

21. What was the last thing you ate? choc mint ice cream

22. Where is your pet right now? on the end of my bed

23. Name 2 things you did yesterday? Housework, chat


25. How many kids do you want? a few

26. Current outfit: in my pjs - shorty shorts and a singlet top

27. What color is your hair? browny-red at present

30. Do you know someone who likes you? yep

31.Have you ever had a friend named Frank or Felipe? no

32. What color is your shirt? blue

34. What were you doing 10 minutes ago? washing up

35. Have you ever said "I Love You" and not meant it? no

36. are you gay straight or a lesbian? straight and perhaps a little bi-curious

37. Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend? yes

38. Did you enjoy your last party? yep

39. Do you believe in ghosts? no

40. have you eaten popcorn in the last 48 hours? no

41. Do you have over 20 really close friends? not really close

42. Do you have a friend with benefits? lol no

43. Have you ever read an entire book in one day? yes

44.Honestly, whats on your mind?: I want ice cream but I really shouldn't if I want to be able to wear my bikinis soon :p

45.Honestly, what are you doing right now? uh, this quiz :p

46.Honestly, who is your best friend? I consider Drew my closest friend, and besides him Carla is my best girl friend

47.Honestly, have you done something bad today? hehe define bad ;)

48.Honestly, do you watch disney channel?: don't have it

49.Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?: no

50.Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time? stupid arrogant idiots who are stupid

51.Honestly, do you bite your nails?: no, never have

52.Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment?: I very much want to see Drew

53.Honestly, are you keeping a big secret right now?: hmm nope

54.Honestly, do you have a friend you don't actually like?: yeah

55. How tall are you barefoot? about 5'3" I think

56. Have you ever smoked heroin? no

57. Do you own a gun? no

58. Rehab? no

59. Do you get nervous before "meeting the parents"? yeah

60. What do you think of your friends? I think my friends are awesome :D

61. What's your favorite Christmas song? All I want for Christmas is You

62. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? coffee or apple juice

63. Do you do push-ups? haven't in ages

64. Have you ever done ecstacy? no

65. Are you vegetarian? hell no

66. Do you like painkillers? when I'm in pain

67. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex? my charm...it's such a big secret :p

68. Do you own a knife? no

69. Do you have A.D.D.? no

70. Date Of Birth? 9th November

71. Top 3 thoughts at this exact moment: This tv show is stupid (all it is is youtube clips), I really want some of that icecream, ooh I like her shoes

72. Name the last 3 things you have bought? ummm....book, cd, underwear

73. Name five drinks you regularly drink: water, coffee, diet coke, apple juice, lemon ice tea

74. What time did you wake up today? 7am

75. Current hair? long and brownish red

76. Current worry? none really

77. Current hate? ummm painful people

78. Favorite place to be? home

79. Least favorite place to be? work

80. Where would you like to go? to the US

81. Do you own slippers? yep!

82. What do you think you'll be in 10 yrs? Married and childed

83. Do you burn or tan? tan baby

84. Last thing you ate? dinner - chicken and veggies

85. Would you be a pirate? no

86. Last time you had an alcoholic drink? Saturday

87 What songs do you sing in the shower? whatever is in my head

88. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? a witch

89. Last thing that made you laugh? Josh

90. Best bed sheets you had as a child? my purple ones!

91. Worst injury you've ever had? umm nothing bad really, maybe sprained ankle

92. How many TVs do you have in your house? 2

93. Who is your loudest friend? Kristen and Emma

94. Who is your most silent friend? lol Drew

95. Does someone have a crush on you? yep

96. Do you wish on stars? no

97. What is your favorite book? ooh no one favourite, too many to list

98. What is your favorite candy/candy bar? mint aero bar

99. What song do/did you want played at your wedding? Not Big by Lily Allen....hahaha not! No idea

100. What song do you want played at your funeral? Hmmm tough one...Chasing Cars

101. What were you doing 12AM last night? sleeping :p

102. Do you love someone? Very much so!

1. Would you bang your neighbor?
eww no

2. What describes your relationship status?
Taken!

3. Where are you?
work :p

4. What's the last movie you've seen?
Simpsons

5. Do you live with your parents?
Yerp

6. What is your middle name?
Louise

7. Who have you talked to most today?
Robin at work

8. Do you carve pumpkins every year?
never have

9. What color underwear are you wearing today?
pink

10. Color of your shirt?
pink

11. How many years have you taken a language?
Did some french at school

12. Who's on speed dial 2? 5? 7?
i dont have anyone on speed dial

14. Do you wish on 11:11?
no

15. Good advice if you ever go camping:
camp near a toilet block :p

16. Are you a bad influence?
sometimes

17. Do you enjoy Diet Rockstars?
Never had it

18. Rather have your name or your siblings name?
my siblings are males...

19. Would you do anything for someone else?
for a certain someone, yes

20. have you ever been called a bitch?
plenty of times

21. Favorite colors?
purple

22. Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
yes

23. What song is on?
none

24. Are your grades good?
they used to be

25. Do you ever think people hate you for filling this out?
lol possibly

27. Does your best friend have a myspace?
Yep

28. Whose page did you visit last?
DM

29. Last time you went out to lunch?
last week

30. What is to the right of you?
phone

31. Who is your favorite character from Friends?
Chandler

33. Do you have one or more Britney Spears CDs?
ewww no

35. Are you a Lost fanatic?
never watched an episode

37. Do you have a song by Ozzy Osbourne in your library?
nope

38. iPod or Zune?
ipod

39. Do you watch Family Guy regularly?
yeah

40. King of the Hill?
nah

41. Do you read trashy romance novels often?
hehe yep

43. Do you sing obnoxiously in the car?
I sound good!

44. Do you ever sing obnoxiously in the shower?
often

45. What's in your CD player right now?
nothing

46. Have you ever pretended your crush was with you?
yep

53. Are you ever a freak about cleanliness or organization?
not a freak...

54. Have you ever been to south africa or africa?
no

55. Do you know how to knit?
no

57. Have you ever written love song lyrics yourself and put them on myspace?
no

59. When you open your closet, what is the dominant color?
black

60. Baskin Robbins or Coldstone?
Coldrockply

61. Physics or chemistry?
fuck both

64. R-rated or X-rated movies?
umm R

65. Walk or Run?
I don't run :p

66. Last person u fucked?
drop kick bf

67. Fly or road trip?
fly

68. Last person you kissed?
Dad

69. What's your favorite Disney movie?
Aladdin

I am too lazy. If I wasn't I might actually post here more often. I might actually post in general more often. All I seem to manage to do lately is BT admining type stuff, and make icons. And play Sims. And make icons. And read a bit.

That is all.

Oh wait. MSN is a bitch. :p

Net died at work, so I was deprived of my boy all afternoon. I head home and get on, only to be attacked by some guy who added me to his msn a while ago, apparantly he's from DM. I've spoken to him maybe four times, each time he asks me again if he can see a pic or see me on cam or something equally pervy (given it's usually his second sentence.) I was soooo not in the mood today, I'm sick of being harassed by guys who are just looking to cyber with me. That is not what I'm online for, sicko perverts. :p

Z ", says:
hi
*~٭¤٭~* Kate *~٭¤٭~* says:
Hi
Z ", says:
how u been.. long time no speak
*~٭¤٭~* Kate *~٭¤٭~* says:
yeah...I'm doing well, you?
Z ", says:
yes.. im fine thanx..
Z ", says:
r u in Oz?#
*~٭¤٭~* Kate *~٭¤٭~* says:
yes
Z ", says:
kool..
*~٭¤٭~* Kate *~٭¤٭~* says:
mmhmm
Z ", says:
so is it late there.. and may i see u on cam
*~٭¤٭~* Kate *~٭¤٭~* says:
it's just after 8pm and no I don't have a cam :p
Z ", says:
oki..
Z ", says:
so hows ur week going sdo fatr
*~٭¤٭~* Kate *~٭¤٭~* says:
can't really complain
Z ", says:
good good
*~٭¤٭~* Kate *~٭¤٭~* says:
who are you on DM again?
Z ", says:
im not havent got a character in there yet
*~٭¤٭~* Kate *~٭¤٭~* says:
why not?
*~٭¤٭~* Kate *~٭¤٭~* says:
just get people's msn info but not join? :p
Z ", says:
i havent had time to b honest..:(
Z ", says:
this is enough for me..
*~٭¤٭~* Kate *~٭¤٭~* says:
so is that all you did? Went looking for people to add to your msn?
Z ", says:
not really.. looking for freinds... and ppl to chat to..
*~٭¤٭~* Kate *~٭¤٭~* says:
well my info was on dm so I can chat to people I rp with :p
Z ", says:
ok..im not rp yet.. dnt knw its thats a crime for u.;. but weve hardly ever chatted..
*~٭¤٭~* Kate *~٭¤٭~* says:
because I don't like people I don't know asking me if they can see me on cam
*~٭¤٭~* Kate *~٭¤٭~* says:
goodbye

....And I blocked him. Ass. :p

I shouldbn't drink so much when I'm by myself, it can't be healthy...but I can't seem to help myself lately :p I sure dont type real well. And I jyst keep Drew up when he should be sleeping...well the only cure for thatr is another drink! :P

[10 things in your room]
01. Bed
02. Stereo
03. Books
04. Clothes
05. Teddies
06. CD's
07. Laptop
08. games
09. photos
10. diary

[9 things you love]
01. Drew
02. my laptop
03. RPing
04. reading
05. my family
06. chocolate
07. shoes
08. dancing
09. writing

[8 songs you love]
01. The Real Thing
02. Chasing Cars
03. The Car Song
04. Smile
05. Any Man of Mine
06. Banana Pancakes
07. Upside Down
08. Bubble Toes

[7 characteristics you like about the other gender]
01. Smile
02. Ass
03. playful teasing
04. strength
05. hands
06. muscles
07. other things *innocent face*

[6 things that annoy you]
01. Arrogance
02. Ignorance
03. When no one replaces the toilet paper roll
04. Slow drivers
05. My brother
06. politics

[5 things you're wearing]
01. grey pants
02. light pink top
03. pink underwear
04. watch
05. Black high heels

[4 of your nicknames]
01. Kate
02. KeddyBear
03. Trina
04. Katie

[3 words to describe you]
01. Playful
02. Chirpy
03. Wicked

[2 clothes brands you wear]
01. Colorado
02. Sportsgirl

[1 thing you can't live without]
01. Drew

Erm...got rather tiddly last night. Tiddly meaning oh so pissed. I didn't intend to get that way, it just kinda happened. I was half cut before I even left the house, and then drinking free drinks for most of the night because people just kept shouting me meant I was awfully drunk by the time I got home this morning, like the worst I think I've ever been. Somehow I wasn't sick, but I was awful clumsy :p. And now I am seedy as hell and trying to avoid making eye contact with Mum because I know she wants me to do housework. So yay for more random quizzes! :p

1. What is your best friend's Mom's name?
Amy

2. What body part do you hate the most?
My butt

3. Who was the hottest teacher you ever had?
None

4. Have you ever made out in a movie theater?
yeah.

5. What body part do you wash first?
My arms

6. Do you have any piercings?
My ears.

8. Is your driveway steep?
Not really

9. What's your favorite flavored Pringles?
sour cream & onion.

10. Have you ever been tied up?
not literally

13. Have you ever had two dates in one night?
no

14. How many times have you been cursed at?
Plenty of times

15. Which shoe do you put on first?
whichever one i grab first.

16. How old are you?
eighteen.

17. Have you ever been to a gay bar?
nope.

18. Have you ever had any Friends with Benefits?
No

19. Is there one thing all of your love interests have had in common?
umm they've all been guys?

20. Did you French kiss before you were 16?
no

21. Have you ever been cow-tipping or snipe-hunting?
never.

22. Who is the last person you usually think about before you fall asleep?
Drew

23. Have you ever had a song written about you?
nope.

25. Have you ever found anything in your parents' bedroom that was questionable?
hmm not that I can think of

26. What was your childhood nickname?
Katie, Trina

27. When is the last time you played the air guitar?
hmm not sure

28. Have you ever peeked in the opposite sexes locker room?
hehe yep

29. What's the weirdest thing you have done while driving?
umm...I always put on makeup in the car

30. Have you ever bitten your toenails?
ewww no

31. How do you normally eat your Oreo cookies?
never had one!

33. Name something you do when you're alone that you wouldn't do in front of others?
pick my nose? lol

36. How many drinks does it take before you get drunk?
depends what it is, but you can usually call me officially drunk after about 5 or so

37. Why are you doing this survey?
Boredom and I like surveys

39. Do you scrunch or fold your toilet paper?
folder

41. Do you have any strange phobias?
not strange ones

42. Have you ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?
plenty of times as a kid

45. Have you ever called your love interest by another girl/guys name?
no

46. Have you ever gotten caught sleeping while on a date?
no

47. Have you ever played naked twister?
no but it sounds fun ;)

48. Have you ever been drunk at work/school?
no

49. Have you ever found your date's/lover's brother or sister to be hotter then Your date?
hehe well Kelsey is kinda hot...let's stick with no ;)

50. How many Sari's do you know?
None


Sidenote: vacuuming and mopping does not help a hangover headache.

1; Who is the last friend you saw? Carla
2; When is the last time you smoked marijuana? Apparantly I did on my birthday but I don't remember it, and I didn't think I was that drunk :p
3; Do you sleep with stuffed animals? Yup! I have two bears I sleep with
4; What kind of mobile phone do you use? Nokia something or other
5; Is fall the best season? Nope, winter is!
6; What kind of shoes did you wear today? Well after I got home today I lounged around kinda seedy barefoot
7; Do you like dr pepper? Hell no! Ewww!
8; Do you tan or burn when in the sun? I tan baby!
9; Have you graduated from your high school? Yep
10; Can you blow a bubble? With bubblegum or bubble blowing stuff, yeah
11; Do you like scary movies? When I have someone brave to snuggle with yeah
12; Roller coasters? yup!
13; Who was the last person to comment you? Drew
14; Do you have a facebook? Say what now? No :p
15; Are you listening to country music? Ewww no
16; What did you do this past Thursday? I got to get off work early
17; Friday? Babysat and got drunkish...yeah ok drunk :p...but not while I was babysitting!
18; Saturday? Lounged around
19; What is today? Saturday
21; Do you like anyone? Yep
22; Do they like you back? Yep
23; Have you ever watched the sun rise? Yep
24; When's the last time you danced? Last night
25; What's one song that makes you cry? None really
26; How's the weather today? Hot
27; Do you like Paris Hilton or Nicole Richie? Neither...pair of skanks
28; What color is your ipod/MP3 player? pink
29; Are you tanned? yup
30; When's the last time you went to the tanning salon? never ever
31; What brand of batteries does your family use? eh whatever
32; Is science your best academic subject in school? hell no
33; Ever drank nailpolish remover? no...people do that??
34; Can you open your eyes underwater? Yep
35; Do you wear glasses or contacts? Neither sadly *wants glasses*
36; What is your ringtone? some funky tune
37; Do you like cops? eh
38; AIM, MSN or MySpace IM? MSN
39; Does it bother you when people are gramatically incorrect? yes, yes it does.
40; WhAt AbOuT wHeN PpL tYpE lYke DiSsz`? Gah they deserve to be slapped. Repeatedly. Hard.

70 confessions

1. the phone rings; who do you want it to be?
Sexy sexy Drew!

2. when shopping at the grocery store; do you return your cart?
rarely

3. if you had to kiss the last person you kissed, would you?
kiss like my Mum? Sure...really kissed? No :p

4. do you take compliments well?
no

5. do you play sudoku?
no

6. if abandoned alone in the wilderness; would you survive?
lol probably not

7. do you like nipple rings?
No, horrible idea :p

8. did you ever go to camp as a kid?
nope

10. if a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he / she was married; what would you do?
tell them to feck off I'm taken, and so are they :p

12. could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you?
*shrugs* No dramas

13. do you like to pursue or be pursued?
bit of both

14. use three words to describe yourself at the moment?
Sleeeeeeepy, hyper, horny

15. do any songs make you cry?
hmm no

16. are you continuing your education?
one day soon. Maybe next year.

17. do you know how to shoot a gun?
Only on the Xbox

18. if your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you grabbed?
laptop

19. who was the last person you shared a bed with?
my teddies

20. who do you text the most?
Drew and not quite so much Luke

21. favorite children's book?
The Eleventh Hour

22. what color are your eyes?
Hazel though some tell me blue :p

23. how tall are you?
5'3"

Wheres 24?

25. life:if you could do it over again, start from scratch, would you?
nope

26. any secret admirers?
a few not so secret ones who are only after one thing *rolls her eyes*

28. when was the last time you were at olive garden?
where's that?

29. favorite ex?
well there's only one to speak of and even though he's a bastard I guess he gets it by default. :p Liam

32. do you like mustard?
no

33. do you prefer to sleep or eat?
sleeeeeep

34. do you look like your mom or dad?
bit of both

35. how long does it take you to shower?
15-20 mins

36. can you do splits?
yes ;)

37. what movie do you want to see right now?
not sure

39. what did you do for new year's?
parrrrrrrrrrty

40. do you think the grudge was crappy?
never seen it

42. do you own a camera phone?
yes

44. was your mom a cheerleader?
nope

45. what's the last letter of your middle name?
e

47. how many hours of sleep do you get a night?
usually around 8 hours

48. do you like care bears?
I still have one from when I was a kid

49. what do you buy at the movies?
popcorn

50. do you know how to play poker?
yep

51. do you wear your seatbelt?
always, fines are too big here

52. what do you wear to sleep?
*waggles eyebrows* A whole lot of not much

53. anything big ever happen in your town?
yeah, it's the state capital - Commonwealth Games, for one

54. is your hair straight or curly?
wavy to curly, but I can easily straighten it and usually do

55. is your tongue pierced?
nope

56. do you like liver and onions?
ewww no

57. have you ever been in love?
very much so

58. do you like funny or serious people better?
funny with a serious side

59. ever been to L.A.?
no

62. do you steal or pay for your music downloads?
steal, but I do buy CDs on occasion

63. do you hate chocolate?
heck no

65. are you a gullible person?
no way

66. do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy?
no, but I've never been as happy as I am now, so maybe it should be a yes

67. if you could have any job what would it be?
chocolate taster

68. are you easy to get along with?
Generally

69. what is your favorite time of day?
evening

70. are you a generally happy person?
Yep